That moment you accidentally take a picture, but then realize the symbolism and that it was never an accident…
It was one of those moments that was lead by many mixed emotions and anxiety. It was full of anxiety because I was going through my own challenges at the time and I was afraid that the many people arriving to watch us share our stories of overcoming our chains would see that I was battling a new one. I was afraid that everyone would be able to see past the pretty dress, and carefully done make-up, and smell the anxiety sweating through my pores. If they figured out that I didn’t have it all together that night I was afraid that my story and the encouragement that I’d give would all of a sudden be null and void.
These were my feelings before I even left my hotel room.
Despite the chains that I had released to get to that point, I was yet harboring another chain that had me nervous to be in that sold out theater as the symbol of hope and clarity and I suddenly felt like I had lost some of mine.
Fast forward to my arrival at the Cinema CafeI was super anxious as I walked into the VA Beach final screening of the No More Chains Documentary film, a film derived from the book of the same title that I am featured in. I tell my story of how I discovered my purpose after I stopped living for other people and took the steps to fulfill my God given purpose.
It wasn’t easy to tell my story and the steps I took that evening weren’t a breeze either. However, the photo you see above symbolizes one of those steps that was captured by accident, yet served a deeper purpose that I hadn’t realized until I stumbled across it later.
There weren’t many people who knew that I walked into that theatre with a heavy spirit (from weeks of stress buildup, overload, and feelings of uncertainty). I was overwhelmed and unable to focus. I was literally emotionally and mentally all over the place filled with anxiety and that I was not as aligned as I knew I could be. Despite how I felt walking in, I left feeling lifted by the audience members and by my fellow sisterpreneurs/authors/co-stars as I left. I finally felt the mix of emotions release and be replaced with hope, and on a creative high with the idea for my next project.
I am blessed that I was able to walk out with direction from God of what my next steps should be and I am close to unveiling the new project that allows me to combine my love for helping others, mentoring, natural hair, and authentic community together. (I gave that slight announcement for you as an extra!).
Do you ever have those moments? Moments when you feel overwhelmed or like things are out of your control and your logic and what your mind/heart wants to naturally do or feel don’t necessarily align? My purpose is to show you that if there is hope for me, there is hope for you. Get Still. Take a break. Clear your mind. Once you get focused and have the opportunity to allow your spirit to receive what God has for you, you will feel much, much better.
~Be Humble. Be Motivated. Be Inspired.~